Got email from my best friend's mother.

Kelly is in the hospital, just had a huge (benign thank the gods) tumor and four inches of her intestine removed. She's in pain, she's in bad shape, she'll be in the hospital for a long time, and it's so bad she's not taking vistors at all.

What the hell, just what the hell.

She's like my fucking sister, and it's only in the past few months we've gotten this close. Why the fuck is this happening. Yeah, it's not like we're talking terminal illness and she's young but...what the hell.

I've never had to deal with a friend being this sick and I'm freaking scared.

To all people reading this: please take it easy on me for a little while. I may be a bit on the even more sensitive side. But if I have your email or IM name, expect I might just tag you to chat because I'm going to need to.

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I think after having a fabulous conversation with a friend, my angst has considerably lightened. Hopefully this will be a positive trend.

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What really sucks right now
-Best friend possibly facing major surgery
-The two new tires I needed just because I drove over a curb
-The feeling I'm losing touch with most of friends in some way or another. Yeah I know that's the territory of being an "adult" but it still hurts like hell.
-The huge creative crash I had after Halloween. Was in a mad rush to make two costumes and had huge HH ideas. When all were done I had nothing left and few other ideas, which for me is very very bad.
-The fact it's the middle of November. Halloween was weeks ago, Thanksgiving is next week, my birthday is in two weeks and so are the rest of the holiday things, meaning it's a dull lull for me which is also very very bad for me.
-The feeling a lot of my Drizzt inspiration is fading
-The fact work has been weird the past few weeks
-The realization my natural hair color is almost completely gray (it's a genetic thing)

The proceeding equals the feeling of being unraveled. Though the following are things that are keeping me sane at least for now.

What is really awesome right now
-Metalocalypse I Dethklok so much right now. The Dethalbum is on a constant loop in my car CD player.
-The fact the tires were changed and that was the only damage my car sustained right before inspection.
-The short weeks with all the holidays.
-The fact Thanksgiving is this week and the holiday season is close behind
-Kohl's and J.C. Penny's for having these really cheap and completely rocking sweaters that have made me appreciate clothes shopping.
-New inspiration for a possible Onisyr fic, in fact the strongest inspiration I have had for him since my block his three years ago.
-A great pattern I found for a pirate shirt and the awesome linen fabric I have for it.
-The fact Project: Runway started a new season.
-The fact my birthday is in two weeks.
-The amount of progress I've made on the next Phoenix Brothers chapter.

I think my lesson is focus on the good and tell the bad to go fuck itself. Note to self: you start wallowing in your own negativity, bad things will happen. You focus on the good stuff, only good can come out of it (hopefully)

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Works in Progress

Hooligan's Holiday
Taking a break before plowing into the big finale

Phoenix Brothers
In progress

Miscellaneous
Kiribans may come soon if I have the energy (and that energy is really low right now, sorry folks).
Working on various sketches and insane experiments.


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